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2005-07-18T08:55:00.000-07:00

Bon Voyage-just a little early.

Thanks to the Jorgensen's for having Paul, Kira and I over for a lovely dinner. I guess I was under the impression that my vacation had started last night, instead of Tuesday. Dude. I drank way too much wine. I am one fuzzy headed, needing to eat crackers, sitting at work holding my head girl. blah. It was sure good to hang out with y'all before we head out. Sorry the conversation got a little intense--it just sort of found its way there.

We are leaving this afternoon to start a two week vacation in Virginia, Maryland and a little bit of NYC. Yeah! for family scattered along the east coast. Hope to hook up with Kodi in VA?? So excited to go. So ready to go NOW. So have to sit here until 3:00 p.m. today (tempting a permanent vacation by blogging at work!) Love to all.

2005-07-13T11:54:00.000-07:00

ps.

'merde' means 'shit' in french--apparently. This is the term dancers ( that I have run across) use before a show to wish each other well. Not 'good luck' (probably for the same reasons actors don't say 'good luck' because that will equal 'bad luck'?) Not 'break a leg' because, who the fuck wants to do that. Also, I think that is what most feel before going on stage. shit, please don't let me fall on my arse. shit, please no brain farts. shit! this is good clean fun. I mean, a good shit....hmm that wasn't--nevermind. MERDE!

2005-07-11T14:17:00.000-07:00

MERDE

Wow. Days sure go by without me writing one blinkin' thing. What's been going on? I managed to pull my hamstring on rehearsal Thursday, last. Those of us posing as ballerinas need those--un-pulled, especially with a performance coming up. ridiculous. I have been fortunate enough to have a contact who has a contact who is a sports trainer. (like that senctence!) I've gone to Ricky for shocking and ultrasound for the past 4 days now. I'm very stiff, but reasonably mobile. I think tomorrow will be the big test, when I actually have to pas de deux. My mantra is...I'm fine. It will be fine. We'll see if it works.

This will be a bit of a long week. Kira and I will be rehearsing M-W from 4-8 with the performance on Thursday, plus work and a bit of teaching on the side. However, come Friday I will be a rehearsal free girl.

Friday also means putting my Mommy hat back on. My sisters and their children have been at my parents home going on 4 weeks(!!) now. Kira has been living it up with her cousins, and I have been on stand down as far as mothering goes. I am feeling exceedingly spoiled about that--not bad, just spoiled. I must say that the last four weeks have been REALLY nice. It might be a little rough at our house when Kira comes back. No cousins, no cable, no aunties, no A/C--she is going to be a...tricky girl to deal with for a while, me thinks. Just Mom and Paul. We are just about as uncool and totally embarrasing as any two could be--according to Miss Kira. I miss her though and will be glad to have my moody, hilarious, pain in the ass, beautiful girl back home.

Wish me "merde". Both for the ballet and the mother-child reunion. I have a feeling I will need it.

2005-07-06T13:24:00.000-07:00

FYI

Hello my friends. I wanted to let you all know...at the same time (this seems a good medium for Wednesday afternoon) that I will be performing the part of Titania in the Cedar City Conservatory's ballet production of 'A Midsummer Night's Dream'. Kira will also be in the performance as a "big fairy" and "fog fairy" and "lullaby fairy". She rocks. The performance is on Thursday, July 14, 2005 at 7:30 p.m. at the Heritage Theatre. I have tickets for $5.00 each, for any that would like to come. Here's the catch. I have to know by Saturday--I have to turn in $$ to the ticket nazi...girl. I would love for you all to come, but totally understand if you can't or can't stomach the ballet. You have all been so good to me over the years--I appreciate your support of my 'thang' that I do. Sorry for the short notice--I get a little paniced when I have to ask for time and MONEY to come and see ME. So my solution....procrastinate(sp?) I'm not sure if it works or not. Let me know as soon as you can.

ALL MY LOVE TO YOU!!

jen

2005-06-27T11:51:00.000-07:00

16 TONS

I woke up this morning with the song--16 tons running around my noggin. You know. "you take 16 tons and what do you get, another day older and deeper in debt" or something along those lines. Well, I've decided that this generation ( okay me ) may need to re-write the song--"you take 40 hours flat on your butt 15 pounds heavier and your brain is mush." Maybe not as catchy, but lord ain't it the truth.

2005-06-23T11:28:00.000-07:00

CAN I GET A WITNESS

Can I Get A Witness. That phrase/lyric has been running through my head the entire morning. My sweet friends are to blame for that. First off, I read through the comments to my last post (THANKS!! you like me, you really like me...Can I Get A Groan.) Two comments on the 'dark side' feel of my blog template. Those comments had me composing a rebuttal to defend my 'dark' choice. That rebuttal included lyrics from a song off The Smiths-Lounder than Bombs album..."I wear black on the outside 'cause black is how I feel on the inside"...Of course that isn't a defense for my blog environment because #1: it's just not true #2: it's not really a reason for black background and white text? I was hoping to use those lyrics to possibly draw out some fellow Smiths fans, and THEN throw out the Can I Get A Witness??...it was working in my head.

Ok, so that fell apart. BUT After reading paul's & becca's latest blog and the comments that followed made sure CIGAW was going to keep mantra(ing) through my head...it seems silly, I know, but I think it has to do with the fact that I could answer the question, 'are you happy'? for the first time in a long time.. I don't have to pause,take a deep breath,try to find the answer that would dodge the question and make the questioner feel at ease--a little tap dance, as it were. But the answer to the question are you happy? absofuckinlutely. This is the happiest time in my life. I guess it's like finding religion. I am happy and I want everyone I love, and shit, just everyone to be happy. 'Cause it feels good. Can I Get a Witness, with a little low five. awright.

2005-06-21T08:11:00.000-07:00

SOLSTICE AND CHARACTER FLAWS

Happy Summer Solstice to all. I had all flavors of intention of getting up early this morning to do an extra special solstice yoga session. Yeah, well that snooze button is like heroin, or processed cheese. I just can't get enough.

In my profile I mentioned wanting to be a good witch. This is the truth. I love the idea of being an herbalist, casting spells for good, meditating on the complexities and magic of pine cones, making small adjustments in the world by gathering sage and making wands, running through the woods naked and painted blue--for the good of mankind. Hippy Dippy--a little wierd(?), I know, but I love the idea. The reality is a bit less pastoral(does that make sense--it was the first thing that came to my head) and one of my biggest character flaws. I LOVE the idea. The action to bring the idea to fruition is a whole other thang. I guess I'll never be the Martha Stewart of the witching world. sigh.

I'll just have to try harder come fall.

love to all.

2005-06-17T14:03:00.000-07:00

So...I'm posting....a blog. I'm one of the last of the missuzj,amandak,littlesis,kodikins ect. gang to 'log on'. It happened because I wanted to leave a comment for the fabulous missuzj and my sweet boy p. and VOILA I now have my very own blog. I am not much of a writer, but I thought what the hell at least I can write back and forth to the best girl friends in all the land. WELL! Hello to all. I guess I'll write a more formal, and possibly more verbose, introduction of myself, when the spirit moves me. Happy weekend to all.